Sometimes I want to have something that I oftentimes before took for granted. Life does have its way of turning wheels around.
I have made mistakes in the past, numerous mistakes that I wish could be erased and retracted.
Haste, immaturity and acute disregard of the future may have been the reasons.
I have left paths undiscovered, paths that I should have gone on.
Fear and utter disregard of the future may have been the reasons.
Now that I am in that future that I often disregarded, the past is slowly creeping up on me.
I don't want to spend my days in deep sighs over opportunities forgotten. But there are nights when I can't help but be sad over happiness that I never found, just because I was stupid enough to disregard my future bliss.
I feel sad tonight. And this sadness is a decade's worth of sadness long worked on. :'(
Can a day wipe out a decade's worth of sorrow?
