You blow my mind with your experience. You seem to have gone through every dream, fantasy and nightmare that I had. As to how these will affect the future, that's what scares me. I have an inkling that these will not be to anyone else's benefit but yours.
Fear boxes me in. And I want it to remain that way. I want to stay within the limits that I forced myself with. It is tempting to break free, yes, but it could only be detrimental to me if I do so these days.
I often imagine how it would be. But as with a few things in life, some thoughts are best left to the imagination and left unrealized.
Yes, things are better this way. The future can only be more secure this way.
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