Because it's been so hard to ask for peace of mind from other people, I deactivated my Facebook account. I don't know for how long my account will stay deactivated though. But at least for now, I am trying my damnest not to access Facebook and see how happy other people are.
I have been having a hard time focusing. Truth be told, I haven't started reading seriously yet. I have too much on my mind, I can't force myself to study effectively. I've been away for 16 days now, and I wasted all 16 whole days. It's not for lack of trying though. I try. I sit, I open the book, I start to read, then I get stuck. My mind can't seem to stay on the book, I start to think of inconsequential things, like who's happy on Facebook.
I have tried so hard to find happiness and peace of mind from other people. All to no avail. As a wise man would say it, how can one find happiness and peace of mind from other people when he can't even provide happiness and peace of mind for himself? I have no idea how to find happiness and peace of mind from within me, but it's not and will not be for lack of trying.
Deactivating my Facebook account is one attempt at trying.